The day after my oncologist called, the cancer clinic here called. My first IV chemotherapy appointment is April 12th. I see the GPO the day before. I will be getting chemo once a week.
I’m still working on processing it. I’m devastated that I’m going to lose my hair. Again. I’m worrying over the other “possible” side effects too. Of all the horrible things I’ve had to go through in this life, chemo is the one that I can still feel like I did then. It’s horrid, scary deadly stuff. I often wondered if I was ever going to come out the other side with any resemblance of what feeling “normal” was like. With any luck, I’ll be able to tolerate it better this time.
My sister was here and brought some pink hair dye. We put a streak of pink in her hair (“For my sister!” She said with a big smile on her face.) Today I put a whole bunch of pink streaks in mine. What the hell, if I’m going to lose it I may as well have fun with it while I can.
This all just really sucks.