So the bone scan was an all day thing. Sorta 🙂 I was in at 11:30 for the isotope shot, then got to leave for 3 hours. My sis took me to my job and she got to meet everyone I always talk about-got to put a face to a name. It was good to go there and see everyone again and let them all know face to face that I’m doing ok. My boss was away tho, would have been nice to touch base with him too. The bone scan was at 2:50pm and the machine can be real scary if you’re claustrophobic. They tape your feet together at the toes, ankles apart and strap your arms in so essentially you aren’t going anywhere even if you wanted to. They lower the big x-ray machine over your head so it’s within an inch of your nose and tell you not to move. The scan goes from your head to your toes so your head is out of it after about 5 minutes. Then because I had (have?) breast cancer they scan your ribs from the side. I wasn’t sure I could do this cause I had to put my hands over my head but it was only for 3 minutes this time instead of the 30 it took for the full body scan so I was ok. Good thing is I can lift my arms over my head now…LOL My sister and I did spend some time at the casino today and no we didn’t win but it was still fun! Tomorrow morning is the ultra sound.
Tag: work
maybe
Tomorrow maybe, hopefully, I get the drains out and will have a little more mobility. I figured out that the pain is coming from one of the drains. It runs from the top of my implant around and down my side where it comes out. I can feel it under the skin. Gross. When I move wrong it pulls.
I had coffee with a couple of co-workers tonight. It was nice to see them and talk and laugh about work. I miss work some days. I also filled them in a little more on what’s going on.
thank you
To my co-workers and the company I work for, you’ve been kind, compassionate, supportive and understanding and made this all easier for me to deal with. Thank you. And thank you for the gifts too! I do appreciate it all 🙂 To my family, for the stories of your own battles with breast cancer, the encouragement, comfort and support. Thank you. To my friends. Thank you for being there and just being you. I know my battle is really just beginning tomorrow but I know I couldn’t have made it this far with my sanity relatively intact without all of you.
My node dye injection is at 6:45am tomorrow in New West, that means getting up at 4:30. After the dye injection I go for the mastectomy at Maple Ridge. 40 minutes or so out, 40 minutes or so back. So what if I don’t sleep tonight. I’ll be doing a lot of it tomorrow. I spend the night in the hospital, then home Friday. I’m not as afraid of the surgery anymore, I’m afraid of the unknown, when exactly, on what date will I be ‘back to normal?’ And how much treatment will I need?
really touched
A co-worker does the Run For The Cure every year. I’m not going to mention names here, that’s not what this site is about. She said every year she’s done it, she’s walked. This year she’s been training and will be running. She asked if she could run for me. (Even writing this brings tears to my eyes). I’m honoured that she would do that and of course she can! And thank you!
I’ve been around cancer for years now, it’s almost like it’s been part of my life like another family member. You know, the black sheep of the family that causes problems no matter what they do or where they go. I went with mom through most of her appointments, stayed with her for the first 2 weeks of her recovery from surgery, her second go-round with breast cancer. Aunts have had it, saw my uncle and step-dad die from it, but I never truly understood the panic, fear, depression and strength that comes with being diagnosed with it. I guess the old adage of ‘Walk a mile …’ is true.
My sister has been with me to all my appointments so far and (in my opinion) has gone out of her way to be with me, take notes and ask questions for me. She’s even filled out some of the paperwork for me because my hands were shaking too bad. I love you sis. If (when?) you go through this, know you can count on me too, ok? I can imagine the fear you’re feeling.
calmer
I’m calmer today. Not feeling as desperate or disconnected. It still nails me between the eyes that this is really happening. I really DO have cancer and really am having major surgery. But it didn’t nail me as often today. And I am more in control of my emotions. And I know I can do this and come out the other side stronger.
And a coworker is designing a tattoo for me for when this is all over. It will be the breast cancer pink ribbon and a white butterfly. It will be a reward for me. Something to look forward to at the end of this journey.
Connie's Breast Cancer Journey 