I’m a shy person, always have been especially around people I don’t know or barely know. This whole experience has added a new level to it. First I had to drop my top for strangers when I had boobs and I found it to be a very uncomfortable situation. Oh sure, they’re professionals, doctors, but that didn’t make it any easier. Now not only am I hairless (I have to take my wig off for radiation), but boobless too and still dropping my top for strangers. These are the radiation techs and so far there’s been a new face every time I’ve gone. And I’m finding it all a bit humiliating. Yup, I know they’ve seen it all before, but that doesn’t make it any easier for me.
This morning before leaving my place for the appointment I was stressing out. It took me until my drive home for me to realize it wasn’t from cancer or radiation or being boobless and bald. All of that I can deal with. It’s from dropping my top for strangers and having them see me boobless and bald. 22 more treatments to go and countless more strange faces.