Had my two month visit with the oncologist.  I ended up taking 2 weeks off of Ibrance instead of one because they’d booked my appointment wrong.  He knew by my bloodwork.  My white count was normal.  I told him they’ve done that once before but I caught it, this time it was too late for me to change the appointment when I figured it out.  Here’s hoping it doesn’t screw me up.  It shouldn’t according to him but it messes with their records I guess.  Oh well, giving me the wrong date for my appointment wasn’t my fault, which he readily admitted.  I’m going into my appointments knowing when the next one should be now, even though he’s taking all the blame.

He mentioned a cyst on my kidney and that they were muddy.  Wait, what?  What cyst on my kidney?  Apparently I’ve had it since the first scan and they’ve been watching it.  He doesn’t think it’s cancer.  ??  I asked him if there were going to be any other surprises.

I saw my CT scan for the first time ever.  Saw the cancer in my scapula and my spine, didn’t get to the one in my pelvis.  That was kind of interesting, to see what’s eating away at me.

We also talked, again, about me not wanting to take the pain meds.  He’s concerned I’m letting this stop me from doing things.  I’ve assured him that’s not the case, I’m not a real active person normally, and I’ve started packing the pain meds when I go on outings that I know are going to be out of my comfort zone physically.

I’m still considered stable.

Had a GP appointment today too.  I’ve asked him to refer me to someone I can talk to.  I need help at this point.  Can’t do it by myself anymore.  I’m getting really depressed and “comfort food” eating as the GP called it, along with the anxiety/panic attacks and just your general down in the dumps.  He says someone will call me.