My Dr tells me what the readings should be which helps. Mt kidney function is 58, should be 60. Knew that was low, there’s a cyst or something on one of my kidneys. White blood count is 2.2, should be 4. Never knew what this one should be before. This is good since I was riding around 1 for the longest time. Tumour markers are holding steady at 115. Still working their horrendous damage but at least they aren’t climbing.

Not sure why I feel better now. Could be because there’s no surprises. Could be because my white blood count is higher than expected which, for me, is huge. Means my immune system still has a little bit of fight left.

Have to go out tomorrow so I’ll be highly anxious again. Wonder if there will be a time when I will feel safe again.