I’ve been naturally stressing for days over this. This one was at 6pm tonight. And I’m already home. Just goes to show ya, you show up early you get out early.

They got the catheter in 1st try again. I guess acting terrified makes the techs more conscious of what they’re doing. Although I’m not acting. The whole process terrifies me and I find it really hard to not run away and just avoid the whole thing.

All the other days I can almost fool myself into believing that I’m relatively healthy and dont have MBC. Lying on the bed with my arms stretched above my head, waiting for the machine to fire up and the voice telling me to “breath in, hold your breath”….”breath out” I realized what scares me the most is one of these CT scans is going to show progression. And it could be this one the way my hip is acting up again. I’ll find out next week.