Had my oncology appointment today. They’re happy with everything. I have no signs of hand and foot syndrome(HFS) outside of minor redness on the pads of my hands. They’ve also taken me off the Letrozole. One less pill to take. One less pill known for fatigue.

I’m not sleeping and haven’t been for the past few weeks. I either wake up every hour or I can’t get to sleep at all. Sometimes my leg and foot feel all pins and needlie. Sometimes I’m afraid of breaking something else. Sometimes I just can’t get comfortable. If I lay on my back too long my lower spine hurts. If I lay on my side, my hip ends up hurting. I’ve taken Hydromorphone when I’m in pain at night. Dr suggested I start taking it every night before bed before I try sleeping pills. Sleeping pills can cause constipation which can cause problems with the Xeloda. I so need a few good nights of sleep. Feel like I’m gonna crack soon if I don’t.

A friend said “Not sure which is worse, the cancer or the cure.” I sure wonder that sometimes myself.