catch up

I haven’t written in a while. Seems all I write about is pain but then that’s what my life is about now.

A few days after the flare ups quit I cracked a rib. It’s in the middle of my back and after talking to my radiology oncologist, it’s an area where I have tumours. He also reminded me that it could take 6 to 8 weeks to heal. He wanted to know why I didn’t go to emergency. It would be a 4 hour wait, then another wait for the X-rays just for them to tell me there’s nothing they can do and my breathing is fine so no punctured lung. Not going to spend a painful day for that. He agreed.

I was just starting to get used to the pain from that and was pulling back off the pain meds and walking a few steps but it didn’t last. A week ago I pulled/bruised something in/by my front lower left ribs. Throw in the occasional neck and shoulder (not new pains, just low grade and not worth mentioning most of the time) and I’m back on pain meds 2 or 3 times a day.

Seems I just get close to being over one hurt and another happens. I’m tired of all the pain and really just want a break from it all. I really need a break from it all.