Yesterday was my monthly blood draw. 3 vials. And I was stressing all the night before and the morning of. After the fiasco with the CT I had to force myself to go.
Today was my oncology appointment. Nothing new really. My tumor markers “are still around 60” which can be taken as they are creeping up or they are just normally fluctuating but he didn’t say either way and I didn’t ask. My white blood count is still low but that’s expected on this medication. I’m still stabilized.
I may be stabilized but I am in no way stable. Some days I’m so tired I don’t want to get out of bed. Others I just want to cry all day. I wonder if I’ll ever level off emotionally or if this is all part of the new me.