I got a call from my insurance company today. They’re closing my claim. How do I feel about it? Great actually. It’s another step towards a normal life. I know that I’ll be feeling the effects of everything for a while. My frozen shoulder that is getting better with each chiropractor visit, My scars hardly ever bother me, my knees are way better. Some things will take longer to go away. The radiation burn that I still have, the numbness across my chest from the surgeries, the brain fog I still get occasionally and my hair is growing. All in all, I think I’ve come out the other side of this relatively ok. I don’t know that it has changed me on the inside all that much, other people would be able to answer that better. I do notice that I don’t get worked up over things nearly as badly as I used to. I don’t suffer from ‘fight or flight’ at every turn.
I do wish I’d been given way more information than I was about some of the stuff I went through before I went through it. Maybe someday I’ll be able to get all the information I found helpful all into one place, easily accessible for the next person who has breast cancer and a ton of questions but aren’t sure who to ask or where to ask. Maybe that will be my ‘pay it forward’ with this experience of getting breast cancer.