I finally came across a website about a woman with breast cancer who talked about the pain and uglys and bad attitude that she had.  I gotta say, it’s refreshing to know I’m not the only one out there who has a hard time focusing on the positive of all this.  I find the negatives out weigh the positives.  Positive-no more cancer (hopefully).  Negatives-pain, anxiety, down time from work, down time from life, fatigue, disfigurement, fear.  Did I mention pain?  I’m glad I don’t show any more signs of cancer but geez, does it have to take all this to get rid of it?  I realize I’m asking for a lot, wanting to feel better after having major surgery only 10 days ago, but I am asking for that.  I need a day of feeling better to pick up my mood.

Spent my last morning with mom today.  She went up to Whistler with my sister then is going home tomorrow or the next day.  She’s been a saint this time around, I’ve not been the nicest person this time.  I truly couldn’t have done it alone this time.  Love you!