I wonder why then call it chemotherapy when it’s anything but therapeutic. Massage therapy, physio therapy, those make you feel better. Chemotherapy makes you feel worse then you ever thought possible. A body wracked with fatigue, hair loss, incredible pain, deadened taste buds, a weakened mind, killing blood cells and in some cases nausea and vomiting is not therapeutic. It is scary and horrible and I feel helpless and I wouldn’t wish this on anybody. No matter what the outcome is supposed to be. I keep telling myself I only have one more to go, thankfully. I can’t even imagine what the poor people are going through that have more treatments than me. This not only takes a physical tole, it takes a mental one. My pain is about a 6 today and it’s moved into my hips. Food sucks. Again. This isn’t chemotherapy, this is chemotorture.