I only have 2 radiation treatments left. Both include an appointment after them. Tomorrow is with the Dr and the last appointment with an RN. Then I’m done with all the major treatment they can give a person with cancer. The only thing left is the hormone therapy. For some reason I don’t see that as ‘major’ treatment even though I can get side effects from it too that can be as bad as chemo and radiation. I’m trying not to worry about that until my appointment for it next week with my chemo oncologist. I also don’t see it as debilitating as chemo or radiation. It’s just a daily pill. For about 5 years.
For the last year, cancer has run my life. For the last 8 months it’s been my custodian, outlining what I do every day, when I do it, how I do it, and for the last 5 weeks, even where I do it. For the last 8 months my life hasn’t been my own, but cancer’s. In a week or 2 hopefully I can fire cancer and run my own life again.
I’ve been asked more than once what was I going to do for myself after this is all over, and it’s been asked by professionals and others who have never had cancer, not by cancer survivors themselves. What I’m doing for myself is getting my life back. I don’t need a trip or a new wardrobe or a new pair of shoes to mark the occasion. Getting my life back is celebratory enough. Coincidentally, my yearly weekend away with my mom and sister is next weekend. There’s a show I wanted to see and got the tickets for Christmas. Before I knew when my radiation would be over. Karma maybe?