I know I spent most of yesterday in a fog with spots of showers. I’d been told over and over again any time I asked that I’d be getting chemo and or radiation but until I was given my first appointment and a prescription for drugs it never really sunk in. Today most of me is trying to ignore it. Parts of me needs to and will before Tuesday, find out what I need to know about it outside of what the oncologist told me and the side effects sheet I got. What really helped me feel like crap yesterday was when I went to pick up my prescription the woman behind the counter whispered that ‘these are for chemo therapy.’ No shit, you don’t think I know that? Whispering it made it worse. Granted, there were other people in line, but there’s nothing like stating the obvious.
I was trying to get my prescriptions straight today. Take 2 pills twice a day for 3 days starting the day before the cycle is one bottle. There’s 48 pills so I guess I’m taking them in sets of 12. Then there’s one to take the day of the chemo but 30 minutes before they jab me with the chemicals. Then there’s one to take 1 to 2 days after chemo if I need them. Me, who never needed a schedule before, never had a problem with remembering when and what, has started using the calendar on my phone for all my appointment and pill popping needs.