Not sure if I said so but when I woke up in the hospital my legs felt really heavy and I had a hard time moving them.  It wasn’t until I finally woke up at about 9 or 10 that they told me they were pressure cuffs.  These canvas contraptions that wrapped from mid calf to mid thigh, hooked up to some motor that contracted around each leg in 3 different spots.  And it was noisy.  They took them off when I was finally able to walk without getting dizzy.  They also intubated me, I lost my voice for most of the night and part of the next day.

I’m tired today and on occasion the pain is about a 2, rising from it’s steady 1.  I’m doing too much, reaching with my left hand when I shouldn’t, trying to scratch my back with my left hand.  It’s depressing to feel fine one minute then realize I’m not in the next.  There’s a lot I still can’t do on my own and that’s getting to me.  And I’m tired.  I finally slept through the night last night but can’t seem to get comfortable today to nap.   And I’m getting bitchy.

Mom and sis were here for dinner.  That I tried cooking but couldn’t do much.   Mom goes home tomorrow cause she says she doesn’t need to be here, I’m doing so well.  I’ll miss her.  Times like this, even tho I’m 40+ years, I’ve wanted my mommy.