Ok, so I’m depressed.  I’ve been doing things to ignore it, knitting, making a bracelet, web design, and nothing shuts down my mind enough to not dwell on what’s going or not going to happen.   I don’t feel useful.  I basically sit around all day and when I do “get out” it only reminds me of how abnormal I look and how much really lays ahead for me.  I’ve tried “fake it till you make it” and the fakeout ain’t working.  I am so tired of it all and it’s far from over.  3 more days.