I’m finding my cat is having to deal with all this too.  His world has been rocked.  He doesn’t like people in his home, and he may come by that honestly because I usually don’t either.  This is my sanctuary, my safe zone.  When I walk in and lock the door, the outside world and all it entails is in effect, gone and I feel safe and secure.  My family and a friend have been here at least once a day, sometimes twice  since this started and Merlin runs and hides in the bedroom each time until they’re gone and I tell him so, then he comes out with a cry and turns into a needy kitten, wanting all my attention.

Normally he’s used to sleeping on my stomach if I’m on the couch, but since my surgery I’ve not let him do that when he wants but when I’m comfortable with it.  He’s not sure what’s going on and isn’t happy about not having control over me, having his routine changed.   At night he’s been sleeping on the back of the couch, the only spot big enough for him close to me.  Last night he fell off, right onto my chest. Not sure where he’ll try sleeping tonight.

The range of people-and pets-this is affecting is amazing, from Merlin to my work, to my family and friends.  I have to deal with the cancer and it’s effects on me personally, and it is personal, but I really feel for everyone else around me who’s lives have been disrupted by this.  I hope someday I can pay it back, or at least pay it forward….