I almost feel normal today besides the phantom itches. My left side is still tight but that’ll loosen up, I think as soon as the scab is gone and the skin can stretch. But these phantom feelings are weird and annoying. I get an itch, go to scratch and there’s nothing there. And the numbness. I try to forget what’s happened but I’m reminded every time I move. I’m so not looking forward to more surgery. I wish I could snap my fingers and just have it all over with. I’ve been trying to come to terms with the fact that there’s a good chance I’ll lose my hair if I have chemo and I can’t get there. It just really makes me sad.
So in order of fears: the next round of surgery, losing my hair and stopping smoking.
Connie's Breast Cancer Journey 
But you are strong and you can do it all…I am sure!!! The phantom feelings are normal – e.g., I still get toothaches. There will come a day, I can attest to it, that you will no longer think about all this. It will be over and a distant memory. In the meantime, remember that I love you….you are surrounded by people that love and admire you! Hugs!!
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